i remember that day.

i peel my clothes off and let them fall where they may

the screen door is broken again

i push through

i see myself lying on my back

floating

letting the cool water envelope me

and rinse me whole again

but i slip and my foot catches on something beneath the waterthe light

the pool's only light

and i break it

it's probably for the best...

the thoughts in my head are so heavy they might make me drown

i sit at the edge of the water

my feet distorted

and i stare at the water

as it begins to calm itself

and i wish i could do that

i don't wade in

i don't float

i don't swim

but still

i hold my breath