Wednesday, January 13, 2010

issues.

It's an issue of believing in myself. It's an issue of loving myself just enough to never deny myself anything. I've never had a true commitment to myself. I want to be able to say that I love myself more than any other person, but in the way that this love inspires me to be the best person I can be. True self-love does not detract from any love I may have for other people. This love of self inspires others and brings me closer to those people.

Confidence is part of it. I admire women who have enough confidence in their true selves to voraciously go after what they want and to say NO to what they don't.

Dreaming is important. If I don't try, I can't succeed. Yes, I might fail, but those knee-scrapes and ego-bruises make me tough. Sometimes I worry that my dreams are "irrelevant" or something equally vague. My dreams are just as important as anyone else's.

Self-esteem is not the pinnacle, as many would think. Self-love and self-esteem are too separate entities. I do want to hold myself in esteem, as it were, but I need that initial realization that I am worth it. Right now, I feel that hard work is the only path to this end.

Keeping an optimistic view of my own future and the futures of those around me, I am ready to step forward--even onto the thinnest of ice.

2 comments:

Karl Smith said...

Always step forward, is the realization I came to. There are a lot of people on this planet who have a dream that they cling to, but never chase it in fear of failure.
But if you chase after it, and fail, that does not end your life. What happens is you either feel a step closer to your goal and change your approach now that you know more about what works, or it fails when you realize the dream might not be what you fully want. At that point your dream changes, and you pursue it further.

Dreaming is the most important step. Never give that up, never lose your sense of wonder, that inner child that would be completely thrilled with simply finding a rolly-poly.

PS - you figure out who I am yet?

Sera Melisa said...

I'm pretty sure I knew the first time you posted, but I could be wrong. I am often wrong.